confidence vampire

Bad handwriting translation:

 I don't know why Heather put up with my b.s.. Back then she was already intelligent and beautiful. 

I fed on her lack of confidence to grow my own.  If she had only pushed me away her life would have been so much better.  Her parents would be enjoying a herd of grandchildren.  But... would my family been the ones...?

Bad handwriting translation:

Now days, in Philadelphia, the clothes I wore in middle school and high school would not be 'weird'.  I tried to both Hide [in my clothes] and scream 'I'm here. I'm different and weird'!